Tuesday, January 6, 2015

In Wonder, In Love

No man knows life fully who wants you to follow him for his sake of being followed and not for your own sake of being free (or to love him for his sake and not your own; how important to true love this is), and this is one subtle but infinitely deep and ultimately blinding trap of modern versus eternal thinking: that we are important when we are followed, or revered, or when someone puts us on a proverbial pedestal; that we can administer wisdom to an individual or group and have its members revere us. A byproduct of leadership may be something that looks like 'a following,' but a desire for that following is not a motivator, or cannot be a reason, for wanting to truly lead- or love.
Love is in its own way leadership: that it proclaims to another not, 'I am wisest, follow me, or love me, or validate me,' but that it very clearly and in practice says, 'You are wise too, and I am not just passively acknowledging but I am learning to love all the little nuances of who you are at every infinite opportunity.' Wisdom begins in this wonder. Wise love begins in pointing it away from our self and shining it onto the heart of someone else so they can be walking in lightness.
If a man does not wonder: about the skies, about the earth, about the stars, about his own heart, he will not wonder about the hearts of any others- and love begins here. We are all just people. You cannot have true knowledge about yourself without also having knowledge (not judgement) of everybody else.

So love begins as the proclamation: I wonder what is inside. Not 'I need,' or 'I want,' but I wonder.

I wonder daily, I wonder always; I wonder: not as a practice, not as a set of rules; I wonder as a way of living. My heart is conformed to wondering, it is grounded in wondering, and my life has the quality of finding beauty, our best hope for Truth, in all there is.

When we finally learn to have a constant encounter with that thing called wonder, it's over. Our old life is over. We awaken to something entirely new and begin to live a life of depth, quality, connection, no matter where we are or even what we're doing. A life full of temporary practices of happiness gives way to a happy life, itself. We are out of the modern trap of thinking we can be free if we have anything to prove.
Who seeks knowledge, who seeks wonder, who seeks love, who seeks adventure, who seeks life in this way, seeks God. Listen now: no man knows life fully who wants you to follow him for his sake of being followed and not for your own sake of being free (or to love him for his sake and not your own; how important to true love this is), and this is one subtle but infinitely deep and ultimately blinding trap of modern versus eternal thinking: that we are important when we are followed, or revered, or when someone puts us on a proverbial pedestal; that we can administer wisdom to an individual or group and have its members revere us. A byproduct of leadership may be something that looks like 'a following,' but a desire for that following is not a motivator, or a cannot be a reason, for wanting to truly lead- or love.
God- Love- does not give to you as the world gives. We do not follow Him because He wants to be followed- we follow Him because we are in Love. God is not real or important when we follow him blindly because we think we should, because we want to avoid punishment; because we need, because we want. God is real and important when we wonder deeply about the insideGod is real and important when we learn what it means to serve Love above self.
xoxo

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